Baby Blues Attack!

I’ve been having the feeling that something is just not right about my life lately!

Two days ago, after I finished my shower, I was drying my hair in front of the mirror, when I saw a pair of scissors on the shelf next to me and the craziest idea popped into my mind! I grabbed the scissors and started chopping my long, beautiful, just recently highlighted hair!

After I was done, reality punched its cruel fist at me! What have I done! I knew I was going through one of my famous blackout moments! Cutting my hair was my way of dealing with blues, the hardest types of blues, since I was 17 years old! Every two or 3 years, I get this insane feeling, the need, the urge, to cut my lovely hair! and I start growing it all over again!

I had to sit down for a while, sipping a cup of dark coffee and writing down a list of my life’s recent highlights, some sort of reality check!

1- My marriage: a very happy marriage, so this is not the reason.

2-My home: one of those dream houses, again not the reason.

3- Our family: all are very supportive, and caring.No not it.

4-My health: very well, thanks God!

5- My dreams: most of them came true, the others are on their way!

6-My daughter: An angel! I can’t imagine someone who loves her baby more than me! But since she was born, I haven’t been able to get anything accomplished! It seems as if my life is rotating around this tiny creature! I haven’t had any “ME” time, and If I go out with my husband and leave her with someone, I feel heart-broken as if I have done a terrible act of selfishness and I’m not worthy of being a mother! When she cries and I don’t succeed in comforting her “which happens sometimes”  My tears start dropping like the Niagara Falls!

So that’s it! It’s the Evil effect of that horrible baby blues ! And one would think that after 3 months of delivery this won’t happen! After I gave birth to Anna, I was glad not to have the pleasure of getting face to face with the famous baby blues that everyone talks about! but, here it is! a delayed unhappy surprise! And my poor hair paid the price! Why new moms get the baby blues any way?  Google once again offered me the answer: “Having a baby is stressful—no matter how much you’ve looked forward to it or how much you love your child. Considering the sleep deprivation, new responsibilities, and lack of time for yourself, it’s no surprise that a lot of new moms feel like they’re on an emotional roller coaster. ” (http://helpguide.org/)

It’s funny how good it felt after I cut my hair!  Yes its true I made a mess and I needed to get myself to the nearest hairstylist  to clean it up!  ” Once you know that I’m a Gemini you’ll not encounter this behavior as weird”. I know it’s just a phase that will fade away, because I’m a healthy young woman with a supportive husband and a loving family, and because I thank God everyday for the blessing of being a mother and having a wonderful baby girl like Anna. Babies grow up in a blink! I remember I used to hear my grandma tell my mom”Be patient, one day you’ll close your eyes and when you open them you’ll notice they have grown! ” My grandma had Ten children, My mom had four, and I’m struggling with this little angle! God bless the previous generations, we are a generation of spoiled mothers I tell you! We women know that, but we keep it a secret from our men! shhhh…

I was caught by surprise when my husband suddenly opened the front door! “Someone give me a hat!!!!! ” I thought to myself! He stood in the entrance staring on what used to be an amazing long hair, and which looks now like a piece of agricultural land which has been harvest in the driest day of the season!

Later that night, I was sipping wine and eating chestnuts by our fire-place with the great man I married, enjoying my new, improved hair cut “After my stylist saved my life off course! Thank you Makram!”

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Cheers My Love!

Cheers my love,

You had me smile again,

In the kindness of your heart

I found the cure of all my pain…

All the darkness of my past,

you wiped out…

You had me learn, that

every bitter night I once lived ,

every tear I once wept

Every day I spent before we met

were not a part of my life,

I now define “life”: the day I met you!

Cheers, raise your glass with me,

it’s a toast of gratitude that we’re in love,

It’s been a year since we joined our souls, and lives

I recap,

our smiles, our hugs,

our silly fights, our late night dinners,

my tears, and your soothing touch,

This year, like the one before,

you’re the best gift I ever got!

I pray that my gift will be the same next year, and for years to come,

Cheers my love!

you lighten my burdens, you brighten my days,

because of you I’m a happier woman,

in so many ways,

Let’s say our prayers,

and drink our wine,

It’s enough for me to know

that in this new year,

you’ll still be, All mine…

Cheers!


My Thank you List 2011- My Prayer List 2012

 

Today is the last day of 2011, and I’m feeling particularly excited about the New Year. I have started some new year’s tradition since 2010, when I decided that years also require a proper closure. Some sort of an elegant goodbye, which leads to spiritual peace. I decided that every new year I’m going to look back and remember only the good times, the achievements, the best of the best and be seriously thankful. For the way I see it, only the Good times are worthy of our meditations and reflections.

I wanted to let you on my end of year rituals, maybe if you practice them they’ll bring you as much joy and satisfaction as they bring me.So, fasten your seat belts and off we go:

My Thank you List of 2011:

“Oh, that men would give thanks to the LORD for His goodness, And for His wonderful works to the children of men! For He satisfies the longing soul, And fills the hungry soul with goodness. Psalm 107:8-9

Lord, In 2011 you have blessed me with every reason of happiness, and for that I’m very grateful and thankful.

-1-  My biggest Joy was when I read the bible for the first time at the beginning of 2011, that’s how I found my way to your beloved son, our lord Jesus. Thank you for showing me the right path! and saving my soul from the valley of shadows.

-2- Thank  you for blessing me with a loving family, my husband and my daughter are the most precious gifts in this life.

-3- Thank you for our good health.

-4- Thank  you for the roof we have over our heads, for the clothes we have on our backs, and for the food we have on our table every day.

-5-Thank you for All the love you have planted under our roof, which is blossoming in our hugs and smiles and in my baby’s face.

-6-Thank you for giving me the chance to spread some of your messages to us through my writings, now I know the reason you blessed with this talent. You want me to write for you, and I will.

-7- Thank you for granting us with enough life time to witness the beginning of a New Year.

Yes, It has truly been a wonderful year, and I’m grateful for every day, every hour, and every minute. Thank you Lord.

My Prayers List For 2012

Jesus Says: “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

11 “Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 13 If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”    (Luke 11:9-12  NIV)

My heavenly father, I pray to you in such a devoted spirit. Give us your blessings to go through our New year.

-1- Grant us the wisdom and logic to stay on the right track, to hold on to our faith even more, to teach others that you are the path and the only way.

-2- Bless the earth with peace. And Show our leaders that war and injustice are not the right way. Plant mercy in their hearts.

-3- Bless me, my Family, and friends with good health and peace. Don’t deprive us from your mercy, accept our prayers, and forgive our weak souls.Give us Our daily bread.

-4- give us the strength and potential to forgive others and help them the same way we want you to forgive us and help us. Salivate us from the wickedness in our souls, and protect us from the Evil.

-5-Protect my little girl, and give her good health, and the care of good people who would love her as much as me and her dad do.

Lord, bless us all.

Amen

I bet that you too have a lot in 2011 to thank God for, and prayers and wishes for 2012. Would you like to share some with me, I would love to hear your thankful list a lot.

I beg you to keep in mind, that it’s not too late, to repent. It’s not too late to give our apologies for our mistakes and start all over, and to pray to our merciful Father for a new beginning.

Happy New Beginning, 2012: Enjoy the night, but don’t drink and drive.

Rana

A Good deed For Today!

A tree is known by its fruit; a man by his deeds. A good deed is never lost; he who sows courtesy reaps friendship, and he who plants kindness gathers love.
Saint Basil

“let’s do a good deed today. Go to your closet now, open it and choose something old, maybe out of fashion that you’re not going to wear anymore. Now think, do you know how many people wish they had those cloths? Give it to someone who needs it.

Congratulations, you just started your day with a good doing, bless you for helping the less fortunate.”

Rana

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Giggles!

Husband says; “When I’m gone you’ll never find another man like me”.
Wife replied; “What makes you think I’d want another man like you!”

Innkeeper: The room is $15. a night. It’s $5. if you make your own bed.
Guest: I’ll make my own bed.
Innkeeper: Good. I’ll get you some nails and wood.

A guy asks his waiter how they prepare their chicken. The waiter says that there’s nothin’ special… we just flat out tell’ em they’re gonna die…

A reporter was interviewing a 104 year-old woman: “And what do you think is the best thing about being 104?” She simply replied, “No peer pressure.

Where Did I Come From?

A little girl asked her Father, “How did the human race appear?” The Father answered, “God made Adam and Eve and they had children, and so was all mankind made.” Two days later the girl asked her mother the same question. The mother answered, “Many years ago there were monkeys from which the human race evolved.” The confused girl returned to her father and said, “Dad, how is it possible that you told me the human race was created by God and mum said they developed from monkeys?” The father answered, “Well, Dear, it’s very simple. I told you about my side of the family and your mother told you about hers.”

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Funny but Precious!

I just love Cats!

I found these gorgeous photos on net and just wanted to share them

Enjoy!

Rana

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More Than Words Could Say!

I wonder how simple things could mean so much

How you changed the world around me in a touch

how an endless love is born from a simple crush!

How  one look from your eyes makes me blush

how u make my day better by a simple smile

the way you talk, the way you walk, all your style

It’s enough how easily you brighten up my day,

Do I love you

I love you more than words could say.

Rana

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